Steph (stepharooni) wrote,

a piece of writing for your dietary pleasure

the pain of absence eats my heart, but I don't let on.
I play the role of the responsible young adult, claim that I know what I'm doing, I know what's good for me, and move on. I try new things, play with thoughts of changing identity, but I've known who I am since I was 14, so what's the point? I find myself swimming through the motions, going through a checklist of unnecessary actions to come to a conclusion I can already see, already grasp, all because that is what I am supposed to do.
the pain of absence eats my heart. I don't let on.

(I know I know, eating hearts...I'm so emo.)
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...and we all know of the things that eat emos' hearts...but seriously, i think i know what you're saying...
yeah...I hear things aren't so great right now and it made me sad that you might be sad...and then sad to think that it's been so long since we've hung out...I miss ya kid, when life calms down we should find eachother and hang out!! much love and a reminder that you kick much ass...Steph
Thanks, didn't work out the way I thought it would, but I'm also not willing to compare myself to another girl who *all* our mutual friends can see through except for...him. I'll just have to be more careful this time around not to get involved with someone who is tied to someone elses fucking thumb.

But yes...we really do have to hang out soon. I was jealous that Rhys got to hang out with you last night, heh heh...but Alexis and i got into trouble of our own so the night turned out well. You and I should paint the town red as well soon.